Saturday, April 23, 2016

Bump Update: 24 Weeks

Baby Size: An ear of corn. And my uterus is the size of a soccer ball this week (it is normally the size of a walnut), it is so incredible how much your body changes during pregnancy. 

Feeling: Really, really sad. We found out last Saturday that our precious Sebastian has lymphoma. It was not expected and both Preston and I are taking it really hard. I cried for most of the first 48 hours after we found out, something I don't think I've ever done before. I'm sure pregnancy hormones play a part in it, I am just having a really hard time accepting that we won't have our Sebastian with us forever. Preston and I got Sebastian together when we were still in college and dating. He has been with us in every home, city, state we've in lived in and has done multiple cross country moves and road trips with us. He was in our wedding and our baby announcement; we've gone through our whole adult life being the three of us. In the 6+ years we've had Sebastian, we've always dreamed of the day that Sebastian would be a big brother and how sweet and tender he would be with a newborn. Knowing that he may only get to love on our son as he grows in my belly has been really heart breaking for me. 

Food Cravings/ Aversions: Nothing! Yellow bell peppers have been especially refreshing the past couple of weeks and I have loved embracing my usual breakfast of sweet potatoes, eggs and avocado again! 

Symptoms: On the day that we found out about Sebastian's cancer I noticed that our sweet boy wasn't kicking or moving around as normal. It made me really nervous because he has been so active, so I drank orange juice and laid down on my left side per recommendations and still didn't feel a ton. Fortunately, he started moving around that evening and all through the night which was the most welcome feeling I have ever felt. After feeling his movements for awhile, I realized he had moved up (I had been feeling him super low) which because of my anterior placenta made his movements less noticeable. I'm thankful we have an appointment this week just to make sure little man looks great in there. 

Weight Gain: Didn't weigh myself

Projects: My mom and I put together a new media console in our living room. Our previous one was most certainly not baby friendly (the bottom drawers fell out pretty easily) so I am feeling VERY happy about this new, much safer addition. 

Dear Baby: Sweet little one, I'm heartbroken for you that you may not get to meet your furry big brother. He would love you so, so much. I've always imagined your sweet little hands playing with his slobbery mouth, putting you on his back to take 'rides' on him, and him protectively by your side as you sleep. I'm thankful that we will have plenty of pictures to show you of him - and tons of funny stories to share with you when you are older. Know that all of us love you so very much. And please keep kicking - my mama heart can't take any scares this week.:) I love you! 

Monday, April 18, 2016

Bump Update: 23 weeks

Baby Size: A grapefuit, just under 12 inches long (which explains that round bump you see there - I am having such a fun time with it)! 

Feeling: Incredibly happy! My parents moved to Texas this week and have been staying with us which has been just about the best thing ever. This little man is so blessed to have such loving grandparents (lots of them) who will take such awesome care of him. I have been feeling really, really thankful for all of the love and support our families and friends have given us. I think I've heard 'It takes a village to raise children' a million times in my life, but only lately am I starting to see how true that is. From both mine and Preston's parents to my sister to sweet friends who have been mommas sharing their advice, I am so thankful for all of the support we have as we transition to parents. 

Food Cravings/ Aversions: Nothing, but it has been so nice to start up green smoothies again and know I am getting plenty of veggies! I am missing ahi lately - I think knowing I shouldn't have poke right now makes me want it even more! 

Symptoms: I realized there are a few symptoms I've had for awhile that I haven't written down and will want to remember one day. The first is excessively fast nail growth! I am not complaining at all about this one. :) I like to have short nails since I am so active which has meant twice weekly clippings. The other is a bit stranger; for several months I have felt a compulsion to brush my teeth multiple times a day. I've of course always brushed morning and night, but during pregnancy I HAVE to brush at least 1-2 additional times and have a good flossing or I feel disgusting. I seem to be especially grossed out at the thought of going to do a workout without having clean teeth (weird I know). I'm guessing this may stem from the fact that I've always heard you are at more of a risk for gum disease when pregnant? Who knows.  

Weight Gain: Didn't weigh myself. I should say here that I did have my first pang of pregnancy jealousy when I saw just about the cutest pregnant lady ever in one of my barre classes. She was one of those precious mamas that gets only a basketball belly and was so tiny everywhere else. I quickly had to shut it down in my mind - I have no business comparing myself/ worrying about anybody else's body. It is such a blessing that I was able to get pregnant so quickly and carry this babe so well so far - I need to be singing my body praises and nothing but that. (Writing this moreso for myself but also for anybody else needing a reminder that our bodies are AMAZING! Every time I start to let funky thoughts get in my mind I just try to think of this awesome quote ;) 

Projects: Fabric and nursery decor shopping with my sweet mama! We didn't end up buying fabric because the store was closing and I didn't want to make a rash decision but I can't wait to purchase it and start sewing! 

Dear Baby: Do you know what I can't wait for? Walks with you. Walks around our neighborhood are one of mine and your dad's favorite activities - we see huge snapping turtles, tons of squirrels, beautiful trees and plants and so much more. We can't wait to show you the world! 

Friday, April 15, 2016

Bump Update: 22 weeks

Baby Size: Size of a coconut, 11 inches and 15.1 ounces - growing so much in there! 

Feeling: Really good! I was a little bit nervous about how my groin/ leg area would feel going into this week and we had big plans - it was our friend's Alex and JJ's wedding so I wanted to be ready for a super fun weekend. Fortunately I woke up on Saturday morning feeling great and we had the best time. It was such an incredible celebration and we loved getting to stand by our sweet friends as they said I do. Above are some of my favorite pictures from the whole pregnancy! 

Food Cravings/ Aversions: No cravings or aversions but oh man I was oh so happy to have Opie's at the wedding - the best BBQ in all of TX! The midwives that I see also have all of their patients fill out a week long food diary, which I finished up at the end of this week as well. Originally I was a bit of a skeptic because I have never done any sort of food logging before and I feel like I generally have a pretty good sense of what I put into my body, but it ended up being pretty eye opening. I realized my veggie intake was pretty lack luster on a lot of days, so I've started doing green smoothies again which I think is a great habit to take through pregnancy and into postpartum (and into toddler days down the road!).

Symptoms: While I do still feel great the vast majority of the time, the soreness/ heaviness in my groin area has stuck around. It is only really bad when I stand on one foot (like to put on undies or pants) or do a hard workout. I've found that I need to listen to my body, particularly during strength training type work outs, to make sure I don't work that general area of my body too hard. Relaxin (a hormone your body releases during pregnancy) is the culprit, as I'm pretty sure what I am experiencing is this. If this is the worst of pregnancy symptoms I am still very much counting my blessings! 

Weight Gain: Up 11 lbs per gym scale

Projects: Cleaned out the entire garage and it felt SO GREAT. I am not sure if it was officially nesting, but I do know that I would wake up at night thinking about how I couldn't wait to purge/ organize every single thing in there. I happened to get an email that our neighborhood clean up/ bulk trash day was the upcoming weekend and so the purging began! I couldn't be happier with how it turned out and now there is plenty of room for a stroller, storage and any other baby fun that needs to be kept in there. 

Dear Baby: I hope you know how much joy you have given me just from being your sweet, squirmy self. You were a wild man this week with your kicks, punches, hiccups and head butts and I can't wait to see all of your moves outside of my belly! I started to have a bit of anxiety about what something happening to you or you not arriving safely and I had to give it to God. My mantra early on was that if something terrible did happen in the future, it wouldn't take away the joy of this moment. I am praying for you often but soaking up every little minute of growing you right now little one. 

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

Bump Update: 21 Weeks

This was actually from my ultrasound and appointment last week but I had to sneak it in here! It reminded me of the toilet paper wedding dress game you play at bridal showers. :) 

Baby Size: A carrot! (The apps I use say he weighs around 12.7 ounces but he was measuring 1.2 lbs at my ultrasound last week so I'd say that's a little off.)

Feeling: Really great! Though at the end of the week I did have my first moments (okay, 48 hours) of pregnancy discomfort. I have been working out 3-4 times my entire pregnancy which I think is part of the reason I have felt so great. On Thursday, I went to a strength training class at a gym I had been to many times before and we did sprints. I did't sprint (during pregnancy I've been told to make sure you can have a conversation while you are exercising) but I did run and apparently it was enough to pull something in my groin area. It was painful and I was a bit shocked by it just since I have felt so good so far. It was a definite reminder to take it easy - even though I may feel great my body has hormones and a belly it is not used to which definitely impacts work outs! Lesson learned!

Food Cravings/ Aversions: Nothing at all - food has been easy, peasy. I am trying to take advantage of working from home and cooking and baking more during the day. My midwives require all of their patients to track their food intake for a week (they like to monitor things like protein intake, etc). For somebody who has never, ever charted food or calories it was a bit crazy! I did realize that I am not getting enough veggies into my diet so I've started back up again with green smoothies - I love being able to sneak some veggies in before I even eat breakfast. Other yummy prep-ahead items I've enjoyed making are homemade granola and cold pasta salad. SO easy and delicious!! 

Symptoms: Still feeling lots of kicks which I love. My mom has always told me she could sense her children's personalities when they were in the womb, and if that is the case then I am going to be welcoming a very active, precious boy into my arms in a few short  months. 

Weight Gain: Didn't weigh myself

Projects: This week has been more focused on general spring cleaning than anything! There is something about becoming a parent that makes the 'responsibility' part of your brain really kick into gear! Things that we should have been doing as homeowners but have slacked on the past couple of years are finally getting done which is awesome. Chimney/ fireplace has been professionally cleaned, window washers are scheduled, fence estimates are rolling in - it is great.

Dear Baby: We've started sharing your name and it has been SO fun. Your mimi actually guessed it, which was SO cool - it definitely confirmed that it is meant to be your name. I don't have an hour go by that I don't think about you, and I hope you know how much I already love being your mama. You are so precious to your dad and me (and so many others) and we can't wait to meet you in a few months sweet boy! Keep growing strong in there and feel free to kick me as much as you want, I absolutely love it.